I have wanted to teach for as long as I can remember. I have tried numerous different ways to become a teacher and until a few hours ago I thought this dream was finally going to be a reality. I am not certified yet because once again standardized tests and I don’t get along. I was one point from the passing the last time and I just took the most horrible test ever again this previous Saturday. It’s called the PLT and it’s horrible. It’s two hours of writing and more writing. I speak of this because I have yet to lie to a potential employer about my lack of certification and my issues with the PLT. With this knowledge I received two job offers from OKC public schools, and well I chose to take my dream job 8th grade social studies. A few hours ago that job was taken away due to my circumstances. What are those circumstances? Are they new? Have I lied? No, but the principal either didn’t listen to me during my lack of interview or chose to ignore it I don’t know either way he took away my job with a two second phone call.
It sucks and I’m sad and I needed my nanny more than ever today but she’s in heaven and looking down on her baby. I haven’t really talked about my nanny’s passing because I was doing quite well with it knowing that she was no longer suffering and was in heaven with all her family but today wasn’t good for me. I have had a bond with my nanny since I was a young girl and I can’t explain it but she was always there for me, driving me to day camp, Sunday school, watching me try to dance in a dance recital, coming to my college graduation oxygen tank in hand. Nothing was going to stop my nanny from being there for her baby and that baby was me. I am not even the baby I lost that lovely title by six months but to her I was her baby’s baby and that was enough. We had a bond that can’t be explained but not only was she my grandmother she was my best friend, person I turned to when my mom wasn’t listening to me, who annoyed me as much as my own mother did, but I loved that woman. I have inherited her ability to speak my mind and speed like there is no tomorrow but I like to think that I learned that family is the most important thing from her as well. She believed that family was important and no matter what you stuck with your family. I believe that she shared that with me, and I hope that I can share that with my non-existent family.
That's what been going on these past few weeks. I will post more tomorrow.